While we are so busy with our lives, attending to whatever needs to be done minute by minute, day by day, week by week , year by year, suddenly LIFE presses the PAUSE Button , some incidents happen , taking us completely by surprise !
Thoughts such as …why ? How will I ? What will I do ?....keep knocking at my temple…but I try and shoo them away almost in reaction that what is happening right now is actually not Happening to Me….. a state of Complete Denial !
Like a friend of mine said , “there is always too much pressure to be interesting and be interested in life ...it’s nice to take a break and feel nothing...and if u are liking it then it’s probably what u needed :-)”
I call this state, ZOMBIE…but does this mean I have stopped appreciating the good that’s happening also ? Not at all !
There is so much of good and positive vibes that are happening …. We as a family are spending time together ….Though in her own world, amma is with me ….learning so much from amma’s young nurse, Shankari who will put a Robert Bruce to shame , such are her efforts and that too with a smile J
My best friends …my maids Nirmala and Vijaya with their pleasant dispositions despite their HUGE personal tragedies , force me to take charge of Myself and breeze thru the day with a SMILE !
I am liking this state of being a Zombie for it has its own teachings…..most important being that I should live for Now and let me take each day as it comes and not wait for anything dramatic to happen !
Somehow the intellect and the intuition both seem perfectly happy in this harmonious state of being !
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ReplyDeletehi dear janaki, We all go thro it at differnet stages of our lives..
ReplyDeletesometimes we are in a state of euphoria, at others quiet and reflective and still others when our mind is in total and complete silence...I think this is a no happy no sad state...an acceptance where go along trusting in that greater power and his plans for us.....
as years unfold, I am sure we will have better understanding, answers for all the whys....
just be yourself....whereever you are, whatever state...
huggs...ra